Tuesday, April 14, 2009
 | Current mood:  apathetic Sometimes people just are who they are. No puzzles, no limericks, no games. We tend to make things complex without the need for it. I envy those people. I don't even understand what the hell is going on in my head half the time, so how in the world can I expect anyone else to? The winds of change....bah, more like El Nino. There is no subtlety in my life. Everything is so pronounced...so 'in your face'. I deny change...but it gives me my dues all the same. At times, I feel as though my skin is going to burst into pieces for lack of understanding. When will any of this mess of life start to make sense? Just another square peg trying to find a home. Opportunities, have come and gone...and I loved them all the same. Him...for my youth. Him...for his ability to shut the world out. Him... for his perspective on life. Him...for his obsession with me. Him...for his knack of making me smile. Him...for his survival. Him...for thinking I am beautiful. Him...for everything he could be, but never will be. Yet, I turn around...and again, alone I stand. There is no one here to hold my hand, to make me smile, to tell me I am pretty. I'm no stranger to this game, I know I don't need the affirmation. I digress, sometimes...I'm just a nervous little girl trying to find her way back home. How could they leave me all alone....when they swore they would be here forever? Oh, that's right....I made them go. |
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