thank you

Thank You
Current mood:enamoured

Sometimes, in life- there are things that no one understands. I have come to terms with the fact that I, as a human, am ignorant and there are things that are simply beyond my comprehension. I know that there is something much larger that is going on, other than the catastrophes that are taking place in my life everyday. I met a young man today at my job who came in beaten and bloody....we started talking and I tells me that his life isnt worth living and that he had already overdosed 3 or 4 times before in attempts to kill himself. I asked him why? He looked at me and asked...why not? He told me that he knew that he wouldn't live to see thirty....he had no desire to be alive. Everyone else that he encountered during his visit treated him as a...well...addict. I chose to listen. I felt so much for this young man that i had never met...I wanted to hug him and tell him that there is always someone in the world that cares. I couldn't do this bc it would be unproffesional...but i wanted to all the same. This young man was only 20 years old...a baby. Yet, he has lived enough to know that he doesnt want to live anymore. What a horrid feeling it must be to feel so alone and desolate that you have nothing to live for. 20 years old, and he longs to die. What is really going on? At that point, I felt to selfish and so completely shallow that i didnt know what to do...these catastrophic problems seemed so lame, so completely unimportant. I have so many that love me, and to name the most important, My Lord. He loves us all, and i am grateful that i know that- so that I dont feel so isolated as to have no thirst for life. He has blessed me in so many ways...my children, my job, my family....so what if i am divorced. So what if my ex is a jerk to me....those are his shortcomings- not mine. I prayed for this young man so that he may know that he touched a complete strangers heart....i also prayed that God would show him his worth and that he would live to see and surpass 30, 40....90. I dont even remember this kids name...but i will never forget him.