The Scientist

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Pulling your puzzles apart.... Current mood: hopeful Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry You don't know how lovely you are I had to find you Tell you I need you Tell you I've set you apart Tell me your secrets and Ask me your questions oh, let's go back to the start Running in circles chasing our tails Heads on the science apart Nobody said it was easy oh It's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I'm going back to the start I was just guessing At numbers and figures Pulling your puzzles apart Questions of science Science and progress Do not speak as loud as my heart So tell me you love me and Come back and haunt me oh All in a rush to the start Running in circles Chasing our tails Comin' back as we are Nobody said it was easy Oh, it's such a shame for us to part Nobody said it was easy No one ever said it would be so hard I'm going back to the start... ********************************************************* Mistakes, how do we prevent them...who do we blame? Can we forgive for the better of what could be? My soul...i thought was breaking, like something was being extracted from my body. When all i wanted to do was just walk away...the thought of life without him left me vexed. So many times in life, I have played the role of a cynic...even when i really didnt want to. I have never met anyone that i couldnt walk away from. Alas, I turn around and see the other half of me. I know it, but i dont know what to do with it. What do you do when in your heart you know that your destiny lies within a person whom has betrayed you and dissapointed you to such an extent? The expectations are beyond what anyone can understand. I saw his pain as he watched me choke back tears that I never planned on allowing him to see. I tried so hard to be strong, to do me- to show nothing but apathy. After all, I am melissa- no one breaks me down, right? The thing is, i know....and he knows...this is way bigger than either of us had planned. When letting the other down means letting yourself down. What do i do with this? How can I make this not hurt so bad? How can I justify forgiving someone who has hurt me so badly? How can I not look so nieve? So I think, and I pray...and I think some more- and still...i come up with the notion that everything I have ever felt before was nothing compared to what I feel today. I turn on my radio...and I hear the Scientist...and I realize- I have to take it back to the start. We are all simple humans, despite what IQ or degrees we possess. We make mistakes...we do things that dont even make sense to us. Prime example is my willingness to look past everything for the better of what I know will someday be. Nobody said it was easy...nobody said it would be so hard- but im going back to the start.