Sometimes in life, when you think that you have it all figured out- everything just changes...in the blink of an eye. Sometimes its good, sometimes it isn't. Just when i could have sworn that I knew what I wanted out of my life...it all changed. You see, I tried to fight it at first- i denied all of it, because i didnt think i was ready. I pushed the situation aside and pretended like it didnt exist- as relationships normally scare the holy fucking shit out of me. I told him that I didnt want to talk to him anymore...but found that that decision made me think about him even moreso. I tried to walk away from it, and it worked...for a while- but then eventually, as if by some form of magnetism- I turned around to find that i was right back where i had first started...dumbfounded...but enamored all the same. I sat back and found myself excited about all of it, which is so odd to me...completely different than all that i have known before. How does something so new, feel so comfortable? Strangely, im not nervous...I have no qualms...Im not afraid- it just feels...comfortable. I always go with my intuition...and things are just different this time. The conversations, the interests, the passions...are almost eerily parallel. I find myself watching him sleep, hoping that morning is staved off forever. Is it love? Well...of course not, lol. Things are only blossoming at this point. It is...exciting...and new...and slightly confusing, but in a good way- it is what it is...and that is just fine with me:) I will say this...with every conversation, I long to know more- about him and all that is entailed...it's almost like a good book- I cant help but anticipate the next chapter...
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