I am going through the change....
Current mood: cynical

Well all, remember the blog about the monmumental change? Its here. i am excited, but so freaking scared. Everything is different. Its almost as though life isnt giving me a grace period. But, that is my life- head first, always. I have never been a toes first kinda gal. I am officially broken free of my marriage which I am 80% happy about- but I miss the consistancy. Then, there is the new situation- which ironically is the opposite of new. I love him something awful- I always have. I am fearful that I now know too much for him. Not intellectually, but I know more about life. I am afraid that my cynansism may be the cause of our demise. Truthfully, a life time of proof may never be enough for me to trust him wholly. He knows this, and he says that he deserves it and will deal with it- but sometimes my doubt irritates him- I can tell.

So...the point of this blog is....well, good question. I think that it is me talking to myself to be honest. Just clearing me thoughts in writing for millions of people to see. Hahaha- ironic huh?