Sometimes

Sometimes...
Current mood: contemplative

Sometimes....

Sometimes I feel there is nothing left,

like my heart will be empty forever-

Like the pain that life has given me,

has caused true love and my heart to sever.

Sometimes I cry when I think of my life,

not only for misfortune, but for happiness too-

And though my life is truly blessed,

sometimes I still cry for you.

Sometimes I miss my innocense,

other times I am glad that I know-

that the trials that God puts before us,

are put there to help us grow.

Sometimes I look at my daughters,

and I think about how they saved me-

And I thank God for all that they have taught me,

Even though they are only babies.

Sometimes I mourne the past,

and pray for just one more chance-

It seems like everything went so swiftly,

and it was behind me with only a glance.

Sometimes I feel so helpless

like I cannot live another day-

And I pray that God strengthens me,

and my fears will go away.

Sometimes I won't allow myself to feel,

and I push everyone away-

I want to tell you that I love you all,

no matter what i do or say.

Sometimes I wish I could change my mistakes,

and right all the wrongs I have made-

But wishing won't change the fact,

that this pain won't go away.

Sometimes I think of the pain i have caused,

to him...to them...and to me-

And if I could I would take all the pain,

and hold it for the world to see.

Sometimes I hate him, sometimes it's love,

sometimes he makes cry...

Sometimes I hurt so badly,

that I think I am going to die.

Sometimes I think I will let it go,

that I will wake up and life will be new-

Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't,

but God will always get me through.